François Mauriac / Signed Autograph Letter / Homosexuality / Tentations
Autograph letter signed "fr" to the priest jacques laval February 7, 1938? Long letter, full of modesty, in which Mauriac speaks half-words of his temptations and homosexuality. My dear little jacque, I guess through your two letters many difficulties, many struggles. They're not new to you. What is new is not to be taken, carried, by an milieu, by a regulation, by the mechanics of the seminary; it is to hold your role in the secret drama of our lives, alone and under the gaze of a god who is not always and at all moments "sensitive to the court". I'm not sure that the arrangement of your life, as described by claude and bruno, is the best for you. But maybe he's the only one that can handle it? My dear Jacques, you're right to believe that I love you, but you're making big illusions about me. We may say we're not getting old: yes! The yard's drying up. I don't suffer, I don't suffer in court anymore. I suffer, but I no longer suffer from the lows and the carnal misery, "we harden by place.] It is through what is in you dangerous, perilous, it is by the most exposed side of yourself that you will no doubt do the most good. For me, I feel like all I have left is gestures, a certain tone of my youth. Don't get upset when I'm judged too harshly. Tell you that my tragedy is not to be ignored, but rather to give me an idea that does not correspond to the being that I really am and whose misery would scare those little priests whom you speak to me and who do me too much honor in judging me on a certain plane. My drama is to have loved above all sincerity and to have led to this lie of my life - for I am bound by my old attitudes, by my pious books.
God will punish me by putting on my face the mask that I hate the most in the world: tartuffe. And yet, we must not scandalize. You have to keep quiet, don't you? [He then talks to him about his nephew bruno gay-lussac, who brought him a novel that surprised him, but he advises not to expect anything from him] "this little being closed and iced, without any tenderness. For me, I've always filed it with the frigidaries.
And I still love him from all my heart" dear jacques believe me as often as you will want it. Pray for me who's not in a good time. I'm never in a good time!
From all my court fr". Although she appeared through several of her correspondences, Mauriac tried to conceal her homosexuality until her death. In the early 1950s he held the position of director of the Vatican television cultural sector.
He was in contact with many writers and artists, including French Mauriac. Her homosexuality will never be worth her being excluded from the church. This item is in the category "collections\letters, old papers\autographs\others". The seller is "laurent-autographs" and is located in this country: fr. This item can be shipped to the following country: whole world.
- number of pages: 4
- type: autograph, dedication
- modified object: no
- subtype: autograph on paper
- theme: literature